29 March 2006

Laments

Sometimes, I don't know if I should cry or laugh ....

I want to cry. But the tears wouldn't come,
I want to laugh. But conscience won't let me,
I want to scream. But my voice is no more,
I want to wail. But there is nothing to bemoan,
I want to be strong. But my core feels empty,
I want to give up. But it feels so wrong.

I heard terrible news today. Devastating news, really.

I'm not allowed to say what it is. Or lay down clues. Just can tell you it's not me. Nothing happened to me.

But it's affecting me deeply. I'm feeling drained.

I feel like a deflated tyre all morning. Grinding forward, but not feeling good doing so.

Turned out my premonition is right.

I hate my premonitions. I hate it when I'm right about feelings like these.

Something terrible happened. Not to me. But to someone close. I hate !!! -> Give me premonitions only if it affects me lah ... leave other people out of it !!! I hate !!!

5 comments:

Che-Cheh said...

ohh gosh what happened ?

moz monster said...

che-cheh: Something bad. To someone nice. =(

pelf said...

Sh*t happens, all the time. Come, Pelf gives Moz a hug :)

*hugs*

(Now please tell Pelf you feel better already)

moz monster said...

angel, I.X, che-cheh, pelf: Hi guys. Thanks. I am feeling better all the time, thanks. Everyone has a different way when it comes to dealing with the trainwrecks life deals you with. I just need to take some time and readjust my own emotions. But thanks anyways =)

Che-Cheh said...

You're welcome :)