And now they know ...

Joshua Ooi !!11!!oneone!!oneone!!1111!!!!

He read my blog. And he found out about me leaving. And he had a funny dream too ... in glorious Technicolor. But somewhat faded color / dual tone kinda Technicolor. I'm thinking it's a bit 60s kinda Technicolor. Josh, please confirm if your dream was in full glorious Technicolor / faded Technicolor / Dual Tone / Monochrome / Black and White.

So here's how Josh's dream turned out ....

• Josh was walking into the office, and approaching his desk.
• He could see Linda, staring out of the Petronas Tower 2 glass pane directly behind his desk.
• As he walked closer to his desk, he could make out Moz Monster standing outside the glass pane (means I standing outside the building lah ... )
  
• He could see that the wind outside was very strong because the winds were blowing against my hair, messing it all up.
  
• And before he could do anything, Moz jumped off the building. Silently. Into the streets 70 floors below
• Josh was at a lost ... stunned into silence.
• Linda ... well, she probably just walked back to her desk and then carried on working.
  

Well, I found that reaction to me leaving ... just plain funny.

Some myths in his dreams:

• I gel my hair when I work. No chance my hair would mess, even in the face of Katrina-like hurricane.
• Since I know suicide would void my life insurance policy payout, I would never do such a thing. You think I stupid meh ?
• On Level 70, there is no way to get out of the building thru the windows lah ...
  
• Linda is usually so blur she wouldn't have noticed I was standing outside the window. She'd probably mistake me for a window cleaner or something.
  

I'm still around. I love myself too much to actually do things like that. I think his dream is just a metaphor.

OK guys, since you guys found out about this already, let me make things plain and clear:

• I do miss y'all. The people are the best thing in my job. You folks in the Malaysian office rawk. I will miss you all. Hell, I'm starting to miss you all already.

• I'm not doing it for the money. At least that's not the reason I wanted to leave. Every person needs to chart his own course; I'm no different. I looked out because I was frustrated with aspects of my job, and aspects of the company. Yes, $$$ is one. But it's not even factor numero uno.

• I really believe that I won't be able to reach that next step in my career here - not on my own terms, not own my own schedule. I know I won't have that sort of control anywhere anyways unless my father runs the country (he doesn't even run the household). But I think I can be proactive and build my strengths and make use of my skills so that when, and if, the opportunity comes along, I'll at least have a shot.

• And honestly guys, my frustrations have been made known for some time now to the folks up there. Some time = a few years. If I can't see a remedy in a few years, I won't find it in the counter offer as well.

• And lastly, I closed the door on counter offer because I don't want to be a hypocrite. I've always told everyone I know that if the counter offer doesn't address the reason one is leaving, there's no point taking it. I know from experience I won't get what I want.
  

Look guys - bottomline is that I love you all dearly, and I will miss you all equally. Think of me as taking a fork in the road - maybe taking the path less travelled. It's a small circle where we work, I assure you all we'll be in touch and we'll be friends - always.